to measure

How do you measure the value of one's life? Is it by the things we aquire, who we love and who loves us back, how many people we help, or how far we get? What makes one person more loveable than the next? What makes you better than the person sitting next to you on the bus, or standing behind you in line?

When do you know it's enough? And is it ever enough? Is it possible that instead of making the right choice, you have made a mistake?

I think sometimes we forget, that we are only human. "To err is to be human." Sometimes you get that sinking feeling that maybe, "i'm doing something wrong. Maybe this isn't where i'm suppose to be. Am i saying the wrong things?" Or maybe your cocky and you think "I dont't make any mistakes or wrong choices."

We pass by numerous people, never really thinking or hearing what they say. Each individual holds their problems in higher regards than anyone else. We say "You don't understand", or "You've never felt like this". When in reality, we don't know how they feel or if they've been through worse.

But we are never alone, with regards to pain. Yes, we may go through different situations that may lead to different levels of pain. We all have different ways of dealing with it and different levels of dealing with dealing. (if you get what i'm saying)

And is it so hard to understand, that sometimes you just want to be alone. That it is possible for a person, to want to do things by themselves. Or that maybe at this moment we dont want that special someone. After all the pain, it takes a while to drain it out. To forget it, to forget them.

We know we have to, that regression is not welcoming. Especially when there was so much pain before, within the others hand. But it takes time. There are good days and there are bad days.

Sometimes we forget that we needed to forget. Memories don't even cross our mind. Then there are other days when all you can think about is then.

Does it make you a bad person? Does it make you weak?

How do you know when you've reached the point? That point where you can tell yourself and believe that "I am ok. I am happy. I am exactly where I want to be."

How does anyone know?



- lola besott