ˈbrōkən

kowareta  gebreek thyer 
sınıq Pòsuì zlomený 
basag brisées gebrochen 
σπασμένα törött rusak
briste rotto buseojin
fracta quebrado slomannoĭ 
slomljen zlamanoyu ...broken




-L. 

Pendulum.

how many times can you overkill your senses before you feel nothing at all

how much of yourself can you give before you feel disconnected from your humanity

i'm forcing myself to finish these thoughts

forcing myself to feel something everyday

swinging away on a pendulum of emotions

sitting stranded in the coal mine

singing like the canary

grasping on to the little bit of hope

that i'm scooped up and led out

but its not your hands that i wait for

there's no prince charming

no champion on a white horse

the savior i wait for

is the girl i see in the mirror

i'm waiting for her to forgive herself for the damaged she's cause

for the mistakes she's made

for her to accept that

she's is perfect at being imperfect

that her eccentricities are a marvel not a blunder

everything can't be fixed

people lie

people change without explanations

or really

people never change you just see

you see without clouded eyes

all the holes you couldn't

wouldn't

see before

pain will wash over like rain

so i'll sing

in hopes that this sweet analgesic

will save us from the insanity in this swinging coal mine

- L.

sing anyway

writer's block. big time. writer's block.

ugh.

crushed

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The Hedgehog's Dilemma

"The hedgehog's dilemma, or sometimes the porcupine dilemma, is an analogy about the challenges of human intimacy. It describes a situation in which a group of hedgehogs all seek to become close to one another in order to share their heat during cold weather. However, once accomplished, they cannot avoid hurting one another with their sharp quills. They must step away from one another. Though they all share the intention of a close reciprocal relationship, this may not occur for reasons which they cannot avoid.

The hedgehog's dilemma suggests that despite goodwill, human intimacy cannot occur without substantial mutual harm, and what results is cautious behavior and weak relationships."

-copied from wikipedia

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You never had a chance you know. Incurable romantics never do

Aya Kondo

coincidence

i've been thinking a lot about coincidences and the big role they play in life

coincidences have led me to

disaster

coincidences have led me away from

disaster

but the more i think about it

was it really coincidences

or something else

for a lack of a better explanation

i'll just leave it up to coincidence

i'm sure luck will want some of the glory

but for now

coincidences

many small coincidences

-lola besott

Rainbow

I have to say that my favorite thing about the human race is our ability to hope. No matter how rough the storm nor how dark the hour there is always hope.

It doesn't matter how small the presence of hope exists once its there...it spreads.
Like fire. Like beautiful fire flies. Hope flies.

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Change

You know those feelings you sometimes get. The feeling that something is about to happen....something big...something life changing. It starts at the pit of your stomach. Then the fear comes. Fear of change. You start to wonder if you're ready. If you have the strength, the courage to face this ....creature. You don't know when but you know soon....change will rear its not ugly but beautiful face. And with it a peace. The knowledge of knowing yes you can face this creature called change and it will be glorious.

-lola
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love

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little flakes

little flakes
gliding in the air
what are you
and where do you belong

who are you
and have you been here long

little flakes
how do you glow
and why are you so small

when did you fall away
and will you be long

little flakes
little flakes
you're little pieces of me!

little flakes
little flakes
i know why you glow
like tiny lite brites
dancing in the air

little flakes little flakes!
we were broken

little flakes little flakes
but now we glow
charged with hope

OH! little flakes little flakes
we are whole

little flakes little flakes

it doesn't matter if we belong

little flakes little flakes

we are who we are

and we are precious

little flakes

- lola besott

Used To Be